The full Moon and some serious contractions

1:41 PM gem 0 Comments


This is my second time to have a baby which is why some people, even my doctor, expect that I already know when I am in labor. Wrong! Being in labor is something I still do not have any idea at all. My water bag broke when I was about to give birth to Megan and that is the only thing that told me it was THE TIME.

Last night, I felt an isolated, but painful contraction I have ever felt in the history of this pregnancy. It was scary because I couldn't move my body because of the pain in my lower abdomen. I was already in bed at that time with Megan. I was praying that it would go away because I haven't packed my hospital bag yet and Abryan was on his way to his office- not a very good time to rush to the hospital. While tears flowed on my cheeks, Megan was trying to help me get into a sitting position. When she saw my tears, she said "I'll get a towel." She got her own face towel and used it to wipe my tears away. Then she said "It's okay Mommy, it's okay." My little nurse is aged 3! The pain lasted more than 5 minutes but I was glad it went away. I couldn't imagine myself screaming for help in case it was already D- Day.

Emotions get really high these days. I thought maybe it was because of the full moon. However, my emotions were brought about by the events that are happening, Other than the "moving-out" event, the nanny has really been getting into my nerves these days. Plainly put, she is hardworking, but she is a chronic liar. When she was asked who just fried eggs, she said it was my sister when none of us would get mad if she admitted it was her. When Megan cried a few days ago and we asked her why, she said Megan just didn't want to eat. But when we asked Megan, she said she hit her head. And to add to these, she just said she is pregnant when last month, she asked me if she could by sanitary napkins from the store. I even gave her a pack of napkins that I had stored before I got pregnant and told her she can just have them. Now she's pregnant all of a sudden just when we are about to move out and I am about to give birth. 

Lying is a big concern for anyone I suppose. It doesn't bother me if she decides to leave because she doesn't want to work anymore but to lie about being pregnant and make us look stupid to even believe her irritates me. And of all people, I shouldn't be lied about pregnancy... that IS my FORTE! If my gut feel tells me you are not, I'll prove it till the pregnancy test results prove otherwise. 

Looking at a different angle, I will have to learn a new role- that is being a full time housewife. It's exciting to take control of everything... Megan, my new baby, cooking (which I am still about to learn), setting the new business and everything else! For the first time, I will be in-charge of our home- none but me. So tell me now why I am not threatened to lose a nanny? I would probably just need 2 weeks to recover from my delivery and then I can start "owning" myself again. 

This full moon has given me different emotions. But among all of them, my feeling of excitement and determination to start anew and make it work are the strongest. There is no backing out- no backing down... Aja!!!

So what emotions did you feel last night? :)

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The struggle when moving out

9:31 PM gem 0 Comments

How do you move out? I can't really answer that question now because I also am trying my best to decipher what I should feel about finally moving out. When it comes to tips on how to move out, that would be fairly easy. What I am referring to would be getting emotionally ready. Do you ever get emotionally ready?

I grew up in this house for 29 years. Yup, that long. I never took a dorm in college. The only nights I wouldn't sleep here happened during vacations. If you can just imagine all of the things that I have bought, collected etc... for 29 years. This house has tons of my stuff in it.

Wanting to live independently never crossed my mind, not even when I had Megan. Why would I when my aunt has not just been responsible but very caring to all of my needs? She has always been like that ever since I was entrusted to her because both of my parents are working outside the country. I have enjoyed being the princess for 28 years. But come my 29th year, when I got pregnant again and got married, I was being forced by nature to leave this comfort zone so we can really start a family; seriously. Maybe if not for the events that started happening last year, I wouldn't really force myself into  leaving our house.

There are times when I am too eager to move out but today, when we started packing the things that I will be bringing with me, I felt torn. However, it has to be done. So... How do I choose which among my 29 years of stuff should I bring???? That is the biggest dilemma I have now.

Books

I hoard books, even those that I know I won't have the time to read. It's only now that I've realized why some people would rather get ebooks than the actual books. I wonder how much space (or if there would be enough space) would all of it occupy.

Clothes

We have 4 full cabinets of clothes. When it comes to clothes, I know most of us would always think that we'd keep this... we'd keep that... so we can wear them ONCE we GET SLIMMER. Because of this, I still have blouses and pants from my college (and maybe even highschool) days. Imagine how small they are now for me! Let's admit it... bones grow, hips get wider... no matter how we starve ourselves, we will never fit into those clothes again so we might as well ... DONATE them. Or if you think they are too expensive to donate, have a garage sale. At least you'll still get something out of them. For this "moving out", I am not going to bring much. I'll bring a few that would fit me at this point. Our cabinet will have enough space for NEW clothes... that only means one thing... Shopping!


Pictures/ Photo Albums

I also have a lot of these. Among the three of us (my siblings), I am the one who has the most number of pictures. Of course... the eldest. Moving to a new place means a fresh start. So why would I bring a lot of unnecessary things? For these, I would recommend a scanner. Save all your pictures in your external HD in case the time would come when you would want to stroll down memory lane and laugh at your kiddie pictures.

CDs/ DVDs/ VCDs

Can I add VHS into these? Hahaha. I grew up in the era where it was cool to collect movies, most specially those hard to find ones. But how many boxes would I need to store all of these? My broadway collections are non-negotiable. They are going with me. For the rest... my recommendation is to rip them and store them (again) on an external HD.

Bags and Shoes

They fall under one category because I don't really buy lots of them. I only buy those that I would use on a daily basis. This is not going to be a problem! :)

Makeups/ Lotions/ Beauty Products

Glad I have my makeup case! these are the easiest to pack. You look at the expiration date and throw those who are nearing the end of their shelf life.

Is there anything else???

I am almost done packing my books and documents. I just wish I would have enough time to even scan my pictures or rip my DVDs. I am not OC. I just have the personality that when I leave something, someone, or somewhere, I wouldn't want to go back. This is why emotional preparation and having everything ready are very important to me.

There will always be a time in our lives where we have to let go of so many things just so we can have a space for the new things. It is time to start creating a new passion!

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Nag mo-Moment lang...

10:24 PM gem 0 Comments

Why I rarely created blog posts and vlogged this February was caused by so many things. Deep in my heart I know these are just excuses.

I had been feeling a little down this month. Waiting for your delivery day can sometimes be very stressful. On my 37th week, I still have a lot of "health concerns" to address to ensure that my baby gets  through with the delivery safe. I'll tell this the way a layman in a medical industry would. My red blood cell count is not where it should be. In short, even with the Iron intervention that my doctor did to speed up the production of my red blood cells in preparation for the delivery, it is still not enough. I have been taking my Iron medications so hopefully, I get better results this Saturday. Second, it was just found out that I have UTI. Again, I was given a week to take the meds and it was expected to clear after. But of course, it's still in progress. Thanks to Yan; he has been buying coconut water for me to drink everyday since it is known to help cure UTI. I am a little worried since I never experienced these things when I was pregnant with Megan.

Other than the ones I have mentioned, I got pretty disappointed when I asked Yan to take my belly shot. I saw pink lines!!! Imagine my horror when I found out that I was not spared of stretch marks for this pregnancy. People always tell me that a boy is always heavier than having a girl. So I guess that explains the pink marks. I was depressed at some point. I started thinking if I'll ever get back in shape after gaining 20 lbs in this pregnancy.

After some days of contemplation, I finally got back to my old positive self. I just realized that I shouldn't feel bad about my marks because it is a sign of bravery. Not every woman would choose to have a baby. Some are afraid and wouldn't want an added responsibility while others have the lamest excuse of not wanting to lose their figure.  My pregnancy marks will remind me that I was strong enough to give up wearing a two-piece swimsuit for a handsome little boy who will bring happiness to our lives. Plus, what good is not having stretch marks when your body can't even pass wearing a decent swimsuit? It's still all about getting FIT.

Instead of sadness, I am excited with the things I can start doing again after I give birth.

  • Massage - I will definitely get a full body massage. My body really needs it.
  • Coffee and Tea - I miss drinking these. Imagine... no coffee every morning.
  • Red wine - I will stock up on red wine when we transfer to our new home. At least red wine would be better than drinking sodas.
  • Keratin Complex- I was informed of this at Tony & Guy when I had my haircut but I opted not to get it (even though they said it was safe for pregnancy) because I do not want to risk harming my baby.
  • Buy new clothes!!! - I stopped buying clothes when I found out I was pregnant. I didn't buy maternity clothes as well. I discovered that my aunts' blouses would pass as maternity clothes if I was the one wearing them. The rest of my clothes were the ones I bought when I was pregnant with Megan. Recycle! 
  • Travel!!! - Abryan and I didn't go on a honeymoon when we got married. Travelling has become harder and harder for me now that I'm full term. There are so many places I want to go to but would just have to wait till I am ready.
  • Vegan cooking- For those who didn't know, I do not cook. I fry. That's basically all I know about cooking. I cannot distinguish beef meat from pork when they are frozen. Thus, I am going to cook Vegan dishes to save me from guessing. I have all the recipes ready! I will start when we have settled in the new home. Wish me Luck!!!
  • Z-WOW Exercises- What I like about owning my time is that I can exercise when I want to. This is one exercise that I will start doing when my doctor gives me the "go" signal. These are 15 minute full body exercises. That's all I need in a day!
With so many of these things waiting for me, why should I even waste my time feeling sad? We'll be moving to our new home soon... I will have a handsome baby boy to carry, I have a sweet daughter who is as excited as we are in seeing her baby brother, and a husband who is very responsible and makes all of us happy. 

Plus... I forgot to include, I have people waiting for me to get through this pregnancy so I can go back to my freelance jobs. Isn't that nice. I don't have to file for leaves and wait for the approval. :)

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0214

12:46 PM gem 0 Comments


For the singles, the couples, and those who feel LOVE in their hearts! <3 

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The Manalansang Wedding Highlights

8:30 AM gem 0 Comments

It's been 2 months since we got married. :)
Here's the highlights of our wedding.

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What else happened this January?

9:11 PM gem 0 Comments

It's already February and I have missed a lot of supposed to be entries for January because I have been busy. With all the freelance projects I have been doing with some colleagues, I had to put a halt on them by February to take all the rest I would be needing in preparation for my delivery. I am on my 35th week today and I couldn't wait to give birth to Abraham.

Part of the project that we did was to test run the facilitator's guide that we did with college students. I was really blessed that Our Lady of Fatima University eagerly offered to have the test run in their campus when the original expected university was somewhere in Manila. It saved me all the hassle of long travels and traffic.

I love freelance work because you manage your time (this past week was an exception of course); you can double or triple your income depending on the projects that you can handle; and there is no tax! Some people would rather work in one company for stability but who wants to work till their retirement  year? I certainly do not want that. In this age, all you have to do is open your mind and focus on earning more and investing your money wisely so you do not have to work your butt off, kill yourself for doing overtime, and develop degenerative diseases which will definitely empty your savings account. In this day, the more sources of income, the merrier!




For the 6 days that I spent in OLFU, I realized how good it feels to teach young minds again. It brings me back to the time when I was in college and had dreams that were a little different from the dreams I have now. Nevertheless, it was the time when I thought of becoming a theater actress and an English teacher. Just like in the movies, it was inspiring to get a job and still make a living from your passion. If these young minds were mentored well, greatness is within their reach.

For that, we are very pleased to become a part of this big project in the country that aims to make graduates more competent so they could easily get that job that they want. Soon, the difference will be felt.

After the last day, I knew I was going to miss teaching students.

Now, it's about time I tune to my body's needs. February (crossing my fingers) will be my rest and relaxation month. Abraham has been very cooperative for the past months while I was busy with projects and events here and there. It's about time I get a "Me and Abraham" time!

Cheers to life's great and random blessings!

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