An old electronic love letter

4:51 PM gem 0 Comments

Often times, I always imagine what if I could go back in time and see myself when I was younger. Maybe there are so many things that I would realize about myself. But if I can't remember how I used to think back then, I remembered how my students were.

Young people are full of dreams. They are not afraid of trying for they do not know yet what they can and cannot do. They just do it without caring if they would be rejected. And young people are creative. But somehow, along the way to maturity, we lose the heart to dream. We get scared of being rejected. We ran out of creativity in expressing ourselves or solving a problem.

I was going through old CDs trying to sort out which ones are still working. I found a CD which made me appreciate how young people are. Somebody gave me this with a poem which was written for me.

Not for anything else but I realize that we can create beautiful things and achieve what we what to achieve as long as our heart has the unwavering desire to do so. Like in fairytales, maybe we are all under a spell. We have forgotten how to be brave and fight so we can go after our happily ever after. Nothing is impossible if you WILL your heart to it.



11:50 AM gem 0 Comments

I've seen a number of movies about being trapped in the elevator. And most of those are scenes you'd never want to get into. Who would want to experience delay by getting stuck in an enclosed area? Last Saturday, after we went swimming at Ascott's pool, we were in a hurry to get back to our room because we have other activities to do and was already crunched for time. And it was unexpected that our elevator didn't even move but we got stuck on the 6th floor. A few girls let out a scream when we stopped. The elevator can carry 17 people. We did a headcount and we were just 16 - including a little girl maybe around the age of 10, and 3 of the other girls were really slim so we weren't overloading the elevator.

They electricians weren't able to fix it at once so we stayed there quite longer. An Islam family who were with us started praying. And with the turning off of the lights and shutting down of the power, and realizing there wasn't any fone signal, I felt that I was gasping for air. I am not really sure if it was a sign of panicking but good thing we were able to keep the humour going while we were waiting for everything to end.

My experience was not traumatizing but I never want to try it again just to find out.

So what are some tips that will help you when you get trapped in an elevator?

  • Check the emergency button- it is important that they know immediately that you got stuck
  • Never panic. Sing a song, talk to other people (if you are not alone) 
  • Patiently wait.... 
  • Keep yourself busy. Use your gadget if you have it with you.
  • Pray. 


Want to know your future???

4:44 PM gem 0 Comments

It is not unknown to my close friends that I love anything that has to do with horoscopes, zodiac signs and finding out about the future. The Bible said not to believe in this things. I understand completely. However, I do not use them so they could decide for me. I 100% exercise God's given free will. 

When my friend Mhay invited me for a fortune reading- I adjusted my schedules so I can attend it. 
She was really looking for one, and he is the best that she was able to find. 

Before the reading, I was a little surprised when he said something about the reason why my friend wanted her fortune read. Imagine... it was before pulling out any tarot cards! It was surprising because he was right!

So after my friend, I couldn't resist not finding out what he could possibly see in my future. But again, as I said... I like challenging "fate" because I know we MAKE our own FATE. Not going to go to details about what we he told us but I am happy about the reading. Since I have gone to a number of readers too, I always make sure that I do not talk to much and give out information which could give the reader a clue about my life. Let's just say that if he can truly SEE it, then he will SAY it. Right?
And so far, he has gotten more positive checks than negative points. Of course this is a reading-- something will definitely be said wrong depending on how it was read. 

But was I like about the fortune teller AUGUST is that he is kind. He even gave us rituals if we want something for relationship, or career. These rituals are for free. And mind you, you invoke angels in your prayer. 

During my desperate times years ago, I have tried rituals too which of course didn't work. Maybe its because they are more like spells than prayers. hahaha. But what I am sure works is the power of the Universe: The LAW OF ATTRACTION.

If you are new to this, I highly suggest you READ or WATCH "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne. It will tell you why some people are successful and why others just keep getting bad events in their lives. 

Here are the few pictures we took from the meeting.
Roan, Mhay and Me
with August

If you want to contact August, visit his FB page here.


Mrs. Cahanding

12:21 AM gem 0 Comments

I was a newcomer when I entered high school in a Catholic school. From having only two sections per year level, and knowing almost everyone in school when I was in Elementary, transferring to a bigger school really is a challenge for all teens, I should say.

On my first day in highschool, all I know was that my section was I-St. Vincent. Then, I met my advisor, Mrs. Victoria Cahanding. Maybe it is true that there are some memories that you will never forget. And surely, a big part of who I am today started in that little room, with an adviser who has played a very big role in my development.

I don't really remember a lot about highschool maybe because my memory isn't that sharp as it ised to be. I only have snapshots of the things that happened in that four years. What I vividly remember was joining an English Club in first year (or was it theater arts club?). On the first day, there really wasn't an agenda. The moderator, who happened to be my adviser too had us watch a broadway play in the classroom. That was the first broadway play I ever watched. Though I didn't understand the story, I was captivated by the music. Every scene was etched in my brain. I fell in love with Les Miserables. It was the start of me loving BROADWAY MUSICALS. That weekend, I asked my guardian to take me to the mall and buy me a soundtrack of Les Miserables. I got in in cassette tape. (kids... you probably don't know what that is anymore. do your research)
At that time, there was only dial-up internet connection. So imagine how long it would take me to browse Yahoo and look for the lyrics of my favorite song from the soundtrack, Eponine's On my Own. And because I love it, I listened and wrote the lyrics from what I understood. Para-paraan lang! it was my first love.

Out of all the lessons in first year, I will never forget the exam wherein we were asked to deliver "Invictus" and... an oration for the girls entitled "Medea". Would you believe that I still have these two memorized till now. So what is an oration? As a freshman, I had no idea how to do it. But my adviser shocked the class when she started performing Medea. It was like watching in a theater. Mrs. Cahanding was full of emotions. After she was done, our jaws dropped with amazement. This is where my "Medea" performance in college originated. My performance of Medea evolved and I was lucky to be chosen to perform this on video for Constel- Continuing Education Via Television, a program aired on PTV 4 aimed at bringing education accessible through media. However, I didn't get the chance to see it on TV. I know my University had a copy of it. :)

From that period of my life, I realized what talents I have in me. I knew my heart beats for performing. And in every activity where performing is required, I made sure I excelled in it. After performing Medea in front of the class, my adviser said something which inspired me so much. "I see myself in you. Your eyes can show a lot of emotions." 

Because of these experiences, because of my adviser, English became my favorite subject. I became the go-to-person when it comes to plays. Time stopped for me the moment she started teaching. This is where it all began. I took up Education major in English because it was the closest thing to Theater Arts. After I graduated, I had no intention of working at once. But then, Mrs. Cahanding asked my younger sister if I wanted to apply as a teacher because she is leaving the school. I tried my luck. I did a demo teach, I can't remember who the panelist were but I know she was there. It ended with me getting the slot that she left. Starting there, I was doing what she did- teaching- inspiring. 

It is true that a person has the power to influence others to become good or bad. And sometimes, without us knowing, our inspiration becomes a part of who we are. 

June 14, 2012, my adviser, Mrs. Victoria Cahanding passed away. It's a sad news because 61 is still a young age. I wrote this blog to let her know, wherever she is now that she has served her purpose on earth. She has inspired and changed a lot of lives. One of those was mine. Thank you so much. You will forever be in my memory. And this is how I will remember you. Rest in Peace.


Movie Date: SWATH

2:16 AM gem 0 Comments

Among all the Disney princess, I was a fan of Ariel, the little mermaid who was Triton's favorite daughter. This is just because this cartoon was the first I ever really understood considering I was too young when I watched the others. One of those was Snow White. True enough, the idea of an evil step mother seems pretty scary and real for children if you compare it to Ursula, the Octopus. So it wasn't really the type of cartoon you would love to watch again and again.

But of course, we all love Snow White because she has seven cute dwarves. And as we celebrate 100 years of Snow White, I chose to watch Snow White and the Huntsman over Mirror Mirror. First is because I am not really a fan of comedies. Second, there's something about Charlize Theron being the evil Queen that I can't explain.

And after watching, I was struck by a thought given by Queen Ravenna

"I was ruined by a king like you once. I replaced his queen, an old woman. And in time, I too would have been replaced. Men use women, they ruin us and when they are finished with us they throw us to their dogs like scraps."
"When a woman stays young and beautiful, the world is hers." 
There is really truth into this as I have observed. Time might have changed. Women's place in the society was already acknowledged. However, it still doesn't change the fact that when a woman is young and beautiful, she can easily get what she wants. Take the actresses for example. How many beautiful actresses have both men and women adored so much in their prime? And suddenly, when they fall in love, get pregnant and for some, became mothers, everyone turned their eyes to the next in line- someone who is younger and more beautiful.

So, I can only think of two things to do since I am a woman.

#1 Make the best of your years while you are young and hot.

hahaha. O yeah. I don't mean for the ladies to be promiscuous. Enjoy your youth. Dress up, wear swimsuits to the beach, sing, dance, act, do what makes you happy. Take pictures so you'll have a remembrance of how good you once look in swimsuits. hehe

#2 Age Beautifully

Since we cannot cast a spell so we can be forever young, we might as well give extra effort so we can age with grace. Women blame men for cheating on them. But if we look closely, the reason is not because the gave birth. It is because the woman looked so much different from the person the guy fell in love with. Being a mother doesn't mean you have to look haggard all the time. Remember, men are visual. You don't have to look young, you just have to look presentable and a sight of life. When you are happy, no matter what age you are in, you will definitely look years younger.

Let's accept that the world is not ours forever. (Like Pacquaio lost today to Bradley - totally BS!)

Enjoy being young inside and out. Don't forget that innocence and purity is our salvation.